Vreau sa “plec”
Ce tarziu s-a facut, parca nici noaptea nu-mi mai ajunge, gandesc deci exist. Da pai cam asta e problema, ce ma fac daca nu mai vreau sa gandesc? Ptr ca nu mai vreau, nu mai pot exista?!…. Mda simplu. Ma intreb unde ma tot duc in mine de nu mai pot sa ma adun. Era ceva acolo, un loc unde stateam de vorba cu sufletul Ei eram numai noi. Eu si EA ,suflete fara materie imbacsita pe deasupra, dar m-a lovit deodata gandul ca sint singur. La inceput n-am crezut nimic din tot ce mi se intampla, dar am inceput sa vad cum sufletul meu sta singur acolo in “locul nostru” si o asteapta pe EA, Din pacate nu mai vine pe la mine. Dar nu asta imi e suferintza, culmea, nu ma doare absentza Ei ci faptul ca m-a schimbat, acum nu mai simt nimic, nu ma mai doare, nu mai e gol, e indiferentza acolo unde era iubire. Ma uit la EA si ii vad impreuna, dar asta nu mai doare. Doare partea din mine care a murit atunci cand i-am vazut dansand. E ceva in toata povestea asta care mi-a distrus iubirea. Atunci in noaptea aia am murit ,acum e doar o problema de definitivare, azi am sa pun punct frazei in care traiesc. cineva spunea ca acolo in locul ala tainic din tine nu trebuie sa fii decat tu, eu am primit-o pe EA si am gresit. Viata e frumoasa in general dar a mea a fost o gresheala inca de la inceput, nu se mai poate corecta nimic, am sa o dau asha sa iau o nota proasta, un 7 sau 8 sa nu cumva sa ies din tiparul de elev mediocru. Aici mi-am scris mie ptr ca oricum nimeni nu citeste asemenea postari, iar daca le citeste ishi spune”alt caraghios dezamagit se sinucide” . Cam atat …..
ixpaint
De mult timp incerc sa exprim in cuvinte ceea ce simt si nu am reusit. Tu ai facut-o pentru mine(si sunt sigura ca si pentru multi altii)…Multumesc.
s j: How is everything going with your GF?
A J: I don’t know
s j: So, who knows?
A J: I didn’t talk to her since wensday
s j: Hmmmmmm
A J: only she knows… she doesn’t pick up the phone so often
s j: I think we need to find new girlfriends
s j: Full-options girlfriends
s j: The most important feature is that you can turn them off whenever you want
A J: I told her that I’m not leaving her, so I won’t look for another one unless she dumps me
s j: That was brave to say dear friend
A J: thanks
s j: It is good that I can see men who love to that extent
s j: I thought that I can only find that in books
A J: well, the nowadays society is not for this kind of men… and that’s what I don’t like about civilisation
s j: Well, you must read for Shakespeare then
A J: I didn’t read much Shakespeare
s j: You should
s j: then you will know that he had a good description of the image of women
A J: now… you mean describing them positively or the description was good ?
s j: A fair description, what would your guess be?
s j: Have you ever heard that?
A J: ?
s j: Frailty, thy name is woman
s j: Have you?
A J: no
s j: Ok
s j: Read Hamlet
A J: but yeah… they are
s j: You will find a good description of women
s j: It is true that it would not be generalized to all women
A J: it very much depends on the parents and how and what they teach them
s j: But believe me, women can easily drop off a love and take another just like a snake changing its skin
A J: unfortunatly
s j: Never love to that extent; otherwise, your heart will be full of wounds
s j: That was my advice, dear friend. Now, I will leave you to start my journey…
dar infernul e in cei care-l traiesc; care si-l construiesc cu mana lor.
gandesti, deci existi. Mai degraba: gandesti, prin urmare iti dai seama ca existi… dar cand gandesti prost, existi prost